Wandered

I have gone way too much. I have wandered around too much that I should. I don't know whether am I getting back to path that I used to be in? The path which shows me the brightest light? Oh my, Why in the first place I'm getting far away from this path. And how in the first place I'm getting back to my old self. I'm seriously dissapointed with myself.

I am loosing myself.

Help me. Even though I refuse the help, do please help me. I'm going to regret it one day. Please. Whoever reading this. Please. Or if you, the writer, read this. Please. Do help yourself.

Never ever turn away from Allah. Never. Never thought that you are superior you yourself are enough. No never!

I am loosing myself.

Admire

this is Ielts fault.

Describe someone you know, or somebody famous, who has achieved great success

Okay there is someone who I think really inspired me to be just like her. Not a total copycat but I just want to be happy and successful like her. In both world.

She is my senior. One year ahead senior. We used to study in the same high school and same Malaysia campus university. And, we are studying in the same course. However, we rarely talk to each other. At first, she don't even know I'm her junior in high school, and all this while I thought she just ignored me because I'm insignificant? lulz

I always bumped her during high school and she looks tough. The way she dress, the way she talk, the way she walk but deep inside I know there is something special about her. She's a genius. When the first time I saw her in university, I can't think how did she involved with tarbiyyah. Lol I know, I judge person by their appearance. And, I still who I am, a scaredy-cat who would never talk to her. Until, now. She's now in Nottingham campus. Striving through ups and down far away from home but yet still firm in both side of the world.

I'm not sure whether I could be as tough as her, but seriously I do admire her for being always positive and be able to manage herself in a far away land.

Way to go kak! I don't want you to know this, but keep on pursuing your dream and be an inspiration for all of us. Thank you.

Faith

Keep holding on! You'll be fine. Allah has promised, for those who is sabr, will be rewarded. 

Have faith. Don't question the past and don't doubt the future. You don't have the power to. Allah do. Just have faith okay? 

Hope i'll get to see you in Jannah. Amiin. May Allah ease everything. 

Flashlight

When tomorrow comes

I'll be on my own

Feeling frightened of

The things that I don't know

And though the road is long

I look up to the sky

Darkness all around, I hope that I could fly

And I sing along, 

I got all I need when I got you and I

Cause I look around me and see a sweet life

I'm stuck in the dark

But you're my flashlight

You're gettin' me, gettin' me through the night

I can't stop my heart

When you're shining in my eyes

I can't lie, it's a sweet life

I'm stuck in the dark

But you're my flashlight

You're gettin' me, gettin' me through the night

Flashlight is like a hope for someone who in despair and can't find anything since they're in darkness. Dark, wet and scary. Searching for light, searching their way end. Desperately. That's what I'm into right now.

There are too much problem for me right now. All comes from me. I'm the problem. I'm the mess I've created.

But yet, I didn't realize that I have several flashlights around me making my darkness a bit lighter. They make me happy, they make me feel at ease. Even though I can't get away completely from the darkness, but they've cheered me up and carved the way with their flashlight on them. At least I can see hope.

Thank you for those with flashlights. I can't mention name by name here. It would be a long list. I prefer to say that every person I met in this world whether you do good or bad to me, you're one of my flashlight. You teach me something. Something significant.

A token of gratitude to all of you. you guys make me who I am today. And thank you for being with me getting through the hard times. And be with me when I'm searching a person whom I can share both happiness and sadness.