no lah i wont write this post in english or maybe mix, because i do think i'm lacking vocab kalau nak masuk deep deep feelings ni.
so it's been almost three weeks after i've settled down in UK. and everything is great here. the people, the environment, the school, the weather (huhu), the accomodation, the food! yes, alhamdulillah everything is just fine. except myself. I'm being too comfortable now. Comfort in my own world. The world that I create for fun to make my time fullfilled with fun things. Yes we do need to filled our life with happiness, but I've filled in so much that I've forgotten to fill in the creator of the happiness. The One who allow me to be happy, to be such in comfort. Allah! Allah Rabbana. Teruknya aku. Every end of my prayers, I seldomly recite my prayers. I'm always in a hurry. I don't even know whta i'm rushing into. Ya Allah teruknya aku. If I wanting something so bad, I would pray hard every end of prayers or all the time, but now after I've gotten all my wishes, I've gone mad! seriously. Alhamdulillah Allah waked me up. I don't know how, but I just realized it. I teruk. Luar maybe I looked nice, shy and all. But inside, I'm rotten. My heart swayed too much. Far away from it used to be.
Alhamdulillah Allah still sedarkan aku from this wildest dream(huhu). Kalau Allah decide takmolah sedarkan dia ni, berapa kali dah kena tegur, buat sekejap je then balik semula berangan dalam dunia sendiri, buat hal sendiri tak peduli aku. Ha! cemana! Siapa nak tolong sedarkan aku kalau bukan Allah? Kalau kau tak ingat dia every single day, and kalau kau buat pun suruhan dia every day tapi you did not put your heart and soul in it, or you don't even mean to do it, or you just filled in your daily routine hmmm apa ceritanya macam tu. But frankly, that's you. every day! you're describing yourself very well. Charesso! Remember, fun is fun but always in your heart is Allah. Do good, feel good, because Allah and Islam is good. Peace.
bende aku tulis tunggang langgang. chiao!
